Tuesday, August 07, 2007
Its been a seriously a sleepless 2weeks for me..... well.... @ da wake , I guess I slept for about 4 hours each day.... n able to catch some nap in da afternoon....... n my bday celebrations.... I went out playing mahjong @ ming yan's hse till 5am in da morning.... b4 going out on 5th Aug for Ktv with YM, YZ n Huiyi..... Thank U all for da CAKE @ Kbox..... was really delicious!
but well..... Today as I was waiting for bus on da way home from Toa Payoh..... 1 song suddenly reignite my sorrow.......
Suddenly I was juz tinking back of how I been travelling to TTSH to visit my grandma..... n to the hospice where she end her suffering.
I never forget that..... the day 2days before she left us..... I was alone with her.... she seems to try n tell me something... but she couldn't.... n me , after a soccer game with my camp mates..... I was feeling so tired...... so I juz slept beside her..... n when I woke up.... she was looking @ me with her big round eyes...... sighz that was the last time I saw her lively eyes..... I was thr for only a while b4 I left for Wenz's bday BBQ....... That was e last time she was wide awake..... n she went into semi-coma stage the very next day........
It happened so fast....... till today..... I still cant accept the fact completely that she has left us.......
I am not pessimistic....but dunno ler..... I personally believe that songs do bring back fond n sad memories of a person.... dunch ya all agree?
Tink Mayb I am kinda emo ler....but everything juz happens so fast that Its just so hard to accept it @ times.......
Well I hope that I get thru it...... by sinking all my pain ,When I am in da gym....... hope that it be useful......
Chill Off~
PS: I guess..... I am just not me...... The current me.... isn't me @ all..... I AM Not like this.... Y AM I LIKE THIS? n WHAT AM I LIKE? I dunno..... can somebody tell me?
nv alone again with nana at 8:17 PM